I’m not sure what I was thinking. That’s just it. I wasn’t thinking.
After all, I’m still trying to understand the messages that my body sends me (see last entry). Sometimes two halves don’t make up a whole, and sometimes the result isn’t as funny as the movie promises:
The local dance studio had advertised “Disco Night!” which included a lesson in the Hustle and then a dance party to follow. I remembered how much fun it was to do the Hustle, and consequently, I thought it would be really fun to just let loose and dance afterwards.
What I didn’t expect was a formal lesson by award-winning ballroom dancers and as we learned each step, we would be switching partners. I went by myself in an effort to “get myself out there” and found out, hey – this is what speed dating must be like! Except, it turns out, this would be more humiliating. On a positive note, I was having fun learning the first few set of steps before things got complicated with full and half turns. On a not so positive note, if my guy also didn’t know how to dance and one of us missed a step, I got thrown off the ship and I took my partner with me. If I tried to laugh it off and the guy didn’t laugh at all, I felt terrible. Being responsible for my own demise was no big deal. But if I ruined it for someone else…
When the lesson was finished, the lights went out and the disco ball came down. I thought, Let’s Dance!!! Where’s Ren McCormack??!! But people partnered up to elegantly chachacha and hustle and do whatever choreographed step they were doing. Oh.
I watched the other single women being asked to dance and after fidgeting on the sidelines a bit, I left. I felt…awkward. I blame myself – I could have laughed it all off and not cared what anyone thought. The point was to have fun, and my feelings of embarrassment kept me from truly having fun.
I guess the point of trying something new is that at least you learn what you like and don’t like. After all, I don’t get the least bit embarrassed when I dance at weddings or other events where you can just let go and dance the way you want to. In fact, I’m positive that I embarrass other people. Maybe structured dance just isn’t my thing.
I was telling my mom about the experience and she said (translation provided in English), “When you were young, maybe 6 or 7 years old, you would put a record on and dance, dance, dance…dance, dance, dance…shake your booty, shake your booty…” (Sorry, I made up that last part. Couldn’t resist.) She said that I would dance and dance and laugh and laugh…
That’s how a kid dances, right? With complete freedom and joy?
That’s what all of me loves about dancing. There is no argument within because I can let it all go and feel like a kid again.
No, I probably won’t be going back to that dance studio. Not unless they combine speed dating with improvisational dance. Now where to find…
4 thoughts on “Shall We Dance?”
Well at least you TRIED and got yourself out there and if other people can’t find dancing fun, then they probably take life too seriously. What’ s next on your “to try” list?
Yeah! I haven’t thought up a new, potentially embarrassing activity, yet…maybe going to my class reunion this year??
…well, maybe you should stick to the wine and cheese type of thingie; everybody’s more fun with booze and brie (btw, some of your dance partners sound like dolts; they should’ve had a good laugh and felt lucky to be dancing with you!)…try ping pong dating! no kidding, sometimes the club i go to hosts dating events (which i’m never invited to, but i’m told people have fun)…
Ping pong dating?? How in the world is it organized? I think I would just start aiming my ping pong at anyone I found attractive. Why does that sound so nasty? Don’t answer that.